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Tue, 21 May 2013 04:36:07 -0400

stephaniesearches: burrowlto.

Mon, 20 May 2013 06:32:27 -0400

stephaniesearches:

burrowlto.

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Mon, 20 May 2013 06:25:44 -0400

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Mon, 20 May 2013 06:25:33 -0400

starkywarky: negativefuck: phisting: LITERALLY EVERYONE IS IN A BAD MOOD HOW CAN YOU BE IN A BAD...

Mon, 20 May 2013 06:24:54 -0400

starkywarky:

negativefuck:

phisting:

LITERALLY EVERYONE IS IN A BAD MOOD

HOW CAN YOU BE IN A BAD MOOD IF THIS GIF EXISTS

why did u just post the same gif was that rly necessary

thesagepage: onlylolgifs: Macaroni being made How is touch...

Mon, 20 May 2013 06:22:41 -0400

thesagepage:

onlylolgifs:

Macaroni being made

How is touch sky

pizza: pizza: the yahoo staff are being scary they...

Mon, 20 May 2013 06:21:54 -0400

pizza:

pizza:

the yahoo staff are being scary

they apologized

"If you didn’t like me anymore, why didn’t you say so? If you had your eye on someone else, then just..."

Mon, 20 May 2013 06:18:44 -0400

“If you didn’t like me anymore, why didn’t you say so? If you had your eye on someone else, then just say it. Instead of making me feel like I do when I’m hungry… So empty.”

- Dance The Whole Night Thru (via lettucesaygrace)

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Mon, 20 May 2013 06:16:37 -0400

personally i feel like romeo and juliet could have handled the situation better

Mon, 20 May 2013 06:15:57 -0400

personally i feel like romeo and juliet could have handled the situation better

malformalady: A tongue of lava oozes out from beneath the...

Mon, 20 May 2013 06:15:47 -0400

malformalady:

A tongue of lava oozes out from beneath the recently cooled crust of a flow. The silica contained within, reflects the early morning sunlight, giving its surface a glassy sheen.

Photo and caption credit: Bruce Omori

I feel like this is becoming habitual

Mon, 20 May 2013 04:36:00 -0400

Recap on the past few days…

Thursday went to the beach, Friday night went and worked at a dance recital practice, Saturday worked the dance recital, then put dat monay in da bank, and went home. Slept for two hours then got up at 2 am. Actually, I was on tinychat and my back started itching so miserably and uncontrollably that i was punching my hand(to refrain from punching other things) and running around the house trying all kinds of creams and gels on my back that should have helped. Nothing helped so I jumped in a cold shower and that worked great. I could calm down and breathe again. For the next hour I tried getting out and in hoping it would go away, but it never did. As I continued this process I came to stand in the shower for another hour, and it had now started itching despite the cold shower. I was so miserable. I cannot describe how terrible the itching was. It’s like when you have an uncontrollable itch but every time you scratch one place it shows up in 2 other spots and it’s so fast and itchy, like on a scale of 1-10 it’s a sporadic 11. Finally I started yelling for someone to come to the bathroom. I yelled and screamed at the top of my lungs for 30 minutes before someone finally stumbled out of bed.

So I get my mother in there and begin telling her what has happened. I’m still freaking out because of how uncontrollable the itch is and how hard it is to even speak. She starts fussing because I had a cold shower for 2 hours straight. She started yelling at me because she was worried about the water pump breaking. I tolerated that, and then she persisted with things I was “doing wrong” and “should have done” until I began to yell and scream and cuss her out at the top of my lungs. How ridiculous is it that I was in so much pain that I actually asked and yelled for help in the middle of the night(which is a big blow to my pride to ask someone for help when I really need it) and yet she still couldn’t do anything but fuss at me and not offer any type of legitimate solution or advice? So I was yelling and screaming about how ridiculous the situation was and that she should just go back to sleep and that I was sorry for waking her up and asking her for help and that I won’t make that mistake again. Eventually I stopped yelling and she started offering help, which eventually led to a decision to go to the emergency room.

So we went and spent 2 hours in the room in the back waiting on the doctor. I was pacing in the small room with the door open, so I noticed a lot of people glancing at me, probably thinking I was crazy. I noticed 3 more security guards gather in the walkways outside of my room, surrounding the central platform of computers and nurses. What? It was the only way I could handle all the itching, by somehow pacing and staying in motion that helped. After those two hours, they gave me some benedryl. 30 minutes later, the doctor came in and checked me out, and I ended up with two shots and a prescription and advice to put on aloe lotion until it was over. Since then I’ve been doing alright, but this is the first Sunday I’ve missed like in forever. Anyways. Continue scrolling :)

Hi, I've been extremely depressed recently to the point of hospitalization. My depression leaves me unable to really feel emotions, especially love, which I can't even accept from people (I have real problems with intimacy). My low self-esteem also drives me away from the thought of accepting eternal love, and I'm ashamed of my disordered thoughts. This behavior along with my apathy makes it so hard to connect to God. Any advice?

Mon, 20 May 2013 04:10:00 -0400

First of all you should know I have not experienced depression in its’ lengthy form. I have indeed felt depressed quite often, but not in the serious, long term forms(at least not that I’m aware of). So coming to me for advice on this is great but I don’t want to imply for any second that I am an expert or that I am anything great. I just can relate to pain.

That being said, I sort of understand difficulty with feeling emotions. Feeling numb to the world and almost being frustrated with myself for not feeling certain things when dramatic and drastic things happen is a serious thing for me. In my greatest pains and anguish I rarely can ever form a tear, or react rashly or impulsively without self-control.

Considering what you’ve said, I think it’s safe to assume that you do want to have a relationship with God, and you do want to be saved and changed for the better. The biggest thing here is accepting the idea that you may have some things God is trying to change in you so that you can better adapt to the life you’re living. That means having to cut your losses and what we want in order to move forward. It’s painful and we are too comfortable with what we have to want to let go. It’s too sentimental or too self-satisfying.

Okay, so what I think you should start off with is your self-esteem. Every sin and separation from God, I strongly believe, is rooted back to some sort of doubt that God will provide something for you. I don’t know that specific doubt, but in depression I could see how a root of doubt that God will provide companionship(friendly or romantically), guidance for your future, have a future for you, have happiness for you, so on and so forth. Whatever that doubt is, you need to find it and confront it. You said you have a hard time accepting eternal love and any love in general? So maybe that’s part of your self-esteem. There must be something there. Maybe you really, truly believe you don’t deserve God’s love or anyone’s for that matter? Maybe you don’t believe that you’re worthy of anything and that you’re disgusted with yourself? Maybe not. But from that bit of information there’s definitely a problem there that you need to confront. If it’s self worth, then you have a journey to take with God to have Him show you your worth and what He does when you let Him use you the way you were created to live.

Do not be ashamed of your ‘disordered thoughts.’ Just because they may be illogical, or wrong, or shameful, doesn’t mean you shouldn’t express them and share them with others. You’re human, and you feel things. You think things. You do things. Acknowledging that those things exist only proves your humanity and gives glory to God for His grace and mercy in sending His son to die for you in love. I know it’s tough, Anon, but you are worth dying for and you are pretty amazing. The devil will try to convince you that God doesn’t have time for you and that you aren’t worthy of talking to God. Why is that? Because the devil knows that if you communicate with God, he’s in trouble. He’s in trouble because God will speak into you and through you and heal you and he just knows what God is capable of, and that’s an opportunity for Him to begin pulling you out of the devil’s mess.

Feel free to talk to me off anon at any time, but you’re welcome to continue speaking via anonymous asks. Thank you for your time! I love you and God loves you more!

Will you tell your kids that santa exists?

Mon, 20 May 2013 03:46:00 -0400

Yes, but not as everyone else knows ol’ Saint Nick. Timmy, Santa Clause is a trickster. There’s the story where he’s a fatty who loves cookies and milk, and gives toys to every boy and girl who is good throughout the year on Christmas. But in reality he’s a skinny invisible man who actually tricks adults into thinking he gets their children presents for Christmas, but in reality they have bought all of the presents. Saint Nick takes credit for always the best of presents that their parents have bought especially for their children to make them the happiest, and the parents haven’t the slightest clue. But you mustn’t tell the other children because Saint Nick would then try to get us again! Right now he is unaware of our little secret that keeps us safe from his trickery: White Chocolate Chip Macadamia nut cookies. So we’re trusting you with this secret, Timmy, because you’re becoming a big boy now and it’s important that you learn responsibility! Okay, have a good day at school!

Lol jk yes

Ugh not again #er #personal

Sun, 19 May 2013 05:44:59 -0400

Ugh not again #er #personal

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Sat, 18 May 2013 22:44:11 -0400

hnaftali: Let God know about it!

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:27:24 -0400

hnaftali:

Let God know about it!

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Sat, 18 May 2013 22:26:59 -0400

berks-dragon-trainer: probablyharrison: onlyhestandsthere: T...

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:25:38 -0400

berks-dragon-trainer:

probablyharrison:

onlyhestandsthere:

T for tender

he opens the door on the fucking hinges side

Oh, you thought this was gonna be a black and white depressing post, didn’t you?

dashbeardconfessional: dashbeardconfessional: it’s so….. majestic don’t underestimate the...

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:22:48 -0400

dashbeardconfessional:

dashbeardconfessional:

it’s so….. majestic

don’t underestimate the Weepindash